I can’t believe it’s Saturday, that a week has gone by without a post or even time to read others and comment. I wrote the following yesterday with every intention of getting it posted, and this is kind of long, but we all know about good intentions and the road to hell. Not that I’m on the road to hell, at least I hope not or not yet anyway.
It’s been a busy week and I was gone three out of the last four days. Monday I went with my friend to her two doctor appointments in Galveston, a two hour drive from here. M was diagnosed with breast cancer last April and it has proved to be aggressive and spreading and they have yet to start any treatment. She’s had every type of scan and imaging you can imagine and more than once, just a constant series of doctors’ appointments. Usually her husband accompanies her but he needed to work so she asked if I would keep her company. I said yes and we left at 7 AM. Now she needs another biopsy, this time on spots in her lung and another lymph node. She met with the oncologist last Tuesday and they finally signed all the paperwork to start chemo in July. My own heart and brain problems pale in comparison.
Speaking of which, I removed the heart monitor yesterday morning, boxed it up and sent it back. It had come with 4 sensor strips and I ended up using three of them. When I removed the last one in the shower Thursday morning this is what my skin looked like…
and these were supposed to be the ones for sensitive skin. It’s shiny because I had put antibiotic ointment on it before I took the picture. I’m glad I only had to wear it for a week.
Tuesday was grocery shopping for the week and my night to fix dinner. I made tostadas and a mango/peach/a little orange juice fruit salad.
I had a follow up appointment with the electrophysiologist Wednesday morning. He’s still not happy with my blood pressure even though it’s not terribly high so added another med to help bring it down some before the two upcoming procedures. He didn’t want to increase the dose of the one I have been taking because he felt it would slow my heartbeat too much. I asked him if I would still have to take the afib medication, too soon to tell, he said. Maybe lower the dose I asked, too soon to tell and really it’s only been a little over three weeks since the ablation. Feels like it’s been longer.
I usually get in within 30 minutes when I go see him but once in a while it takes longer. Wednesday was one of the long waits and it’s a small waiting room, only 10 chairs for two doctors and about half the people bring a spouse or adult child. My appointment was for 10:45 and I got the last empty chair and then a constant stream of people started coming. Nowhere to sit so they waited out in the hall. I have no idea why they were so backed up but it happens. Maybe there was an emergency earlier, who knows. I had brought a book so I just sat and quietly read while I waited. After a while an old guy with a walker (most of the patients were old and using walkers or canes this day) and his daughter came in and sat down and then another old guy with his walker and his wife with her walker came in. He sat in the only available chair and she went out in the hall. There was already one lady grumbling about the wait to whoever would listen and then this guy came in and he talked non-stop and LOUD, engaging the woman and the guy with his daughter and two other men waiting, talking about their individual heart problems and bitching about everything, the doctors scheduling too many people and making them wait eventually getting around to the bullshit nobody wants to work cause the government pays them to stay home (a total MAGAt). I just wanted to yell would you please SHUT UP! I mean, really, every time there was a lull of a minute I’d think finally and then that old fart would start up again about something else. I could have told you his whole life story, his medical history, and everything else he didn’t like if I’d have paid attention. I didn’t get in the room til 12:30 and was so thankful for the peace and quiet. On my way home Abby texted me to see if I would lead the class that night so I did that.
Thursday of course was SHARE and then three errands and always feeding the not so wild wildlings every day unless I get Robin to do it for me, and yoga. Wednesday when I went to feed them Minnie slipped out and ran over. I always leave her at home because she will want to chase the kitties when I’m there to feed them. But she was a good dog so I’ve been letting her come with me the last two days albeit on a leash which I hook around a post to get her used to the kitties and the kitties used to her.
I refused to watch the debate Thursday night, it would just have made me angry, waited instead to read about what people were saying. Apparently part of the rules were that the moderators would not fact check the candidates in real time which allowed Trump to lie relentlessly. And I read that Biden had a cold but got better as it went. if all people are going to look at is how they looked and spoke instead of what they said it does look bad. Biden is a measured and thoughtful speaker while Trump is bombastic and everything he said was a lie, projecting his own criminality and intentions on Biden, took credit for things that Biden has accomplished, continually trashed the country, didn't answer any of the questions. I don't think either candidate lost any votes, or gained any for that matter, as a result but I do wish certain democrats and news outlets would stop harping on Biden’s age. Trump is 78, so basically just as old as Biden, and in recognizable severe cognitive decline and if he gets elected again he will also be in his 80s during his term. Why does no one ever point that out? They want Biden to step aside and allow another candidate except there’s a big problem with that. No one else is running. It doesn’t matter who you would prefer or support, if that person doesn’t want the job you can’t make them be the candidate just because you want it. Everyone that has been suggested has said no, they support Biden. Fortunately, this is early still and will be long forgotten. And Biden on Friday gave a speech to a group where he admitted he may not debate as well or speak as strongly as in the past but he knew one thing, he knew how to tell the truth. Perhaps if he had prefaced his performance in the debate with ‘folks, I’m still recovering from a cold I got in Europe last week so forgive my raspy voice’, certain democrats wouldn’t have gone into a tailspin. His speech on Friday when he wasn’t being bombarded by one lie after another proved that Biden is still the man we need. Let’s give him the House and a bigger margin in the Senate so that he can finish what he has started and then a younger candidate can carry it on next.
That skin looks almost raw with irritation, hope it's not bothering too much.
ReplyDeleteAfter years of regular waiting room attendance, I think I have fine tuned my attitude and response to the various challenges of a room full of mostly unwell, often confused and in extreme cases, totally infuriating people. It took time and patience and some skill of defusing rubbish statements. Most often, I end up talking about kids and pets and gardening.
there was no part of any of that conversation between 5 people I felt like participating in. I have had some gentle conversations with people sitting next to me in the past. one guy sat next to me once and asked if I knew what the yin yang tattoo on my ankle meant. I think he was surprised that yes, I did know what it meant, what it symbolized, and why I chose it.
DeleteYou have been super busy. I am so curious as to why M.'s doctors have not yet begun treatment. That's three months! Fuck fucking cancer.
ReplyDeleteI did see the debates, except for the last few minutes when I just couldn't. Ellen, it was so sad. I grieved through the whole thing. Biden was just struggling. And I realize that may have just been a blip but it looked and sounded horrible. He struggled hard over numbers and facts and I'm sure that. the pressure of knowing he was so closely timed had a lot to do with that. Meanwhile, old hale'n'hearty looking Trump vomited lies all over the place. One after another.
At this point I'm just going to concentrate on doing what I need to do to be a decent human being and encourage everyone to vote. Take care of my world. I don't even seem to be doing very well at that lately.
as I said, I didn't see how Biden came across but I don't think one bad performance should cause everybody to panic especially considering his strong performance the next day which everyone is conveniently ignoring. I also read one guy's post who said he timed each candidate when they were speaking and they let Trump go on for over two and three minutes at times and cut Biden short of his 2 minutes at times. somebody else remarked that the lighting, whether purposeful or not, was unfavorable to Biden. for whatever that's worth. and the NYT seems to have a personal vendetta against Biden, apparently because Biden refused to give them an interview the guy who runs it thought he was owed. they have run one hit piece after another pounding on Biden's age and making him out to be feeble, completely ignoring Trump's obvious mental decline.
DeleteCNN is nowed owned by a right winger and it shows. I did not know about the lighting, but it's a good point. Lighting makes or breaks how a person looks on stage. Nothing will move me off team Biden, another four years of the orange menace and we're done. NYT editors are really butt heads with zero concern for their country. Are you staying in NSR?
ReplyDeletethat would be "now owned"
Deletewhat is NSR?
Deletenormal sinus rhythm - aka not being in afib
Deletefor the most part yes. 30 seconds of a few blips now and then.
DeleteI was feeling pretty depressed about the debate (which I also did not watch), but HCR talked me down off the ledge. I totally agree with what you've said!
ReplyDeleteAll that chatter in the waiting room would have bothered me too, especially the unwanted political opinions. As for the debate, I watched the first ten minutes or so, but it was so painful I turned off the TV and went to bed and read. It dismays me that this is the best a nation of 330 million has to offer. When I watched a little of the coverage the next day, the most heartwarming part was that Jill Biden was there to congratulate her husband and escort him off the stage, whereas Trump had to slink off alone. I fear more than ever, however, that he will win the election. What that says about the mindset of the nation I hate to even consider.
ReplyDeleteI did watch the debate and I was depressed as well. Not because I thought Biden did a poor job, but because of all the lies Trump spouted and no one called him on it. It should be apparant that he only thing Trump has mastered in his entire life is lying and believing his own lives. My skin took awhile to heal after wearing that monitor for three weeks, now my cardiologist is talking about wearing one for 3 months! Says my heart is proving to be hard to diagnose.
ReplyDelete3 months?! no way could I wear that that long. my skin would be totally raw. apparently part of the rules was no real time fact checking. but on the other hand the constant stream of lies turned some people off.
DeleteWell, I was saddened to read what some of the media said about Biden after the debate while ignoring the mess of lies that Trump was delivering. I will still vote blue, of course.
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