Sunday, January 14, 2018

cold and unmotivated

Damn damn and damn. Yesterday was the Fort Bend County Master Gardeners' fruit tree sale. My sister and I talked on Wednesday about going. We planned to go. I wanted a ruby red grapefruit tree and a peach tree and I completely forgot! And I guess she forgot because I didn't get a call yesterday morning asking where was I, we need to get on the road. It's not like I did anything yesterday besides get some of my hooks on the wall 

and watch Game Of Thrones. Well, had we gone we would have been standing outside in line for 45 minutes in 30˚ weather. 30˚ windy weather. I'm feeling better about it already since I can still get my trees from one of the more or less local nurseries later in the spring.

I'm finding myself to be singularly unmotivated these days, unable to make any decisions or even get out my model making stuff. I blame it on the cold weather. The days end and I'm wondering what the hell I did all day besides watch the cardinals, chickadees, titmice, and yellow warblers come and go from the tea cup. Mid-January and the cardinals are engaging in mating behavior, the males taking little tidbits to feed the females. On our warmest day last week Big Mama emerged and sunned herself for a few hours. I'd been keeping watch for her, locating her as she hunkered down in different parts of her pond. I was a little worried when it iced over during the last freezing spell.

The dog has dragged me outside and now that the wind has died down it's really nice out, sun shining in the winter blue sky. I was standing out there thinking about all the things I could and should be doing outside on this pretty day. Eh. Well, I did go out front and pulled another large handful clover from amongst the bluebonnets, an annual task since the clover, left alone, will quickly overwhelm the bluebonnets.

Feeling guilty about being a lazy slug, I got the Dresden china chandelier outside and hosed off all the dust from the remodeling of my studio room. You might remember it from a year or so (or longer) ago. It hung in the city house and has been hanging from a ladder since we sold that house. It was really dirty and I set about to clean it and got about 3/4 of the way done and then abandoned it. So close! So, hosed down, I identified where I had left off and cleaned one more arm. Two more arms to go and then the cluster underneath. 

I haven't felt compelled to finish cleaning it because I didn't know what I was going to do with it when I did finish. It's too long, 3', to hang in a house with 8' ceilings, so I'm going to hang it from the hook in the ceiling in one of the corners of my studio after I check with Rocky to make sure it will support the weight.

Guilt assuaged, I'm ready to plant myself on the couch and dive back into Game Of Thrones. After I walk the dog.


  1. That is such a great idea, to hang it in the corner of your studio. Some day when I am living in this house with only Sweet Man and the cats, I too infoshall be fanciful and put things where I choose. For now with teenagers and dogs around, uh, not so much. I guess I missed information on Big Mama's welfare after the flood. I was fearful about asking in case it was bad info. Now I'm a happy me some turtles, terrapins and tortoises.
    As far as being "lazy"'re just resting up for what comes next. That's my excuse when winter days pull me off track and I read all day or do other than what should be done. Happy Winter wishes my friend

  2. Ellen, you and I are so much alike. The cold weather has me unmotivated too and I just took a long nap after having slept for at least nine hours last night.
    Also? I love that lamp. I would have that thing in my house in a New York second. It's beautiful.
    Don't feel guilty. To everything there is a season, right? And you pushed yourself to the limit day after day last summer. Your body and mind need to simply restore themselves and that is what you are doing.

  3. That is some gorgeous chandelier. Happy to hear Big Mama is ok. There was a cool article somewhere about alligators in Florida being frozen in the water with their snouts above the water line so they could breathe. Cold weather is just demoralizing.

  4. It's like a shock to the brain is a shock to the brain is a shock to the brain. Don't worry; motivation to do something slides back in. Sort of like Mama Turtle.

  5. I've been a bit lethargic too. It's the weather, I tell myself. Although it has been so unusually warm here that I am beginning to freak out...I don't want to think about it.
    Your chandelier is gorgeous! Handmade made, each of those little flowers and cherubs are. I don't think you could ever find quality like that now.

  6. That TV seems to be calling. I watched 2 seasons of the Crown this last week.

  7. I would love to blame the weather for my lethargy, but really that's my normal state :) Love the chandelier!

  8. Days like these are reaffirming the healing powers of procrastination. There is a reason this word has such complicated spelling, you need all day to recover from it.

    I'd love to see the entire chandelier.

  9. I guess I've been reading you for a while because I remember that chandelier! And lethargy is perfectly fine - there's a reason animals hibernate.

  10. I do remember that chandelier. I'm glad you've made progress on cleaning it -- I think it will look great in a corner. It's kind of natural to respond to this time of year with an urge to hibernate, don't you think? I don't blame you one bit!

    1. Just realized I perfectly echoed Marty's comment above. So much for originality! Ha!

  11. I am currently sitting here like a huge slug watching Judge Judy call people idiots. I think I want her to preside over the impeachment ......


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