Sunday, September 19, 2021

weird dreams


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It's been a long time since I've remembered my dreams, any wisp still remaining evaporating with my first conscious thought but lately I've been having doozies. I recounted one last Saturday and now these.

Friday night's dream: I looked out the door to see 8 or 9 people milling around in the yard. Went out and stood in front of the house staring at them and finally asked what they thought they were doing. Never did get an answer but there was a house for sale on the corner and somehow I thought they were from there and were looking around. Then one of the women walked out of my house and I started yelling at her what are you doing, how did you get in my house, you can't just walk in my house. so then several of them pushed past me and went in and up the stairs and I followed after them to the top of the stairs yelling that they shouldn't go up there, they didn't want to go up there, it was scary, something scary up there so I went back down. Maybe heard some screaming. Next thing I'm going around locking all the doors and windows, lots of french doors across the front and lots of windows on the side and back but at the same time caterers were there to prepare for a party for my son and his friends for graduating high school though I wasn't going to be there because I (we?) were going out that night and I cautioned them/him to keep all the doors and windows locked and when I was locking the last window in the kitchen I couldn't find the lock and while searching for it I noticed the wall underneath had a cut in it so I moved the small empty bookcase in front of it and saw that a square section had been cut and was removable and someone had cut through the outside of the house to the inside to be able to get in so I was trying to find something heavy to put in front of it when something/someone started trying to push their way in.

After that I don't know if this dream segued or it was a different dream but I was with some people and it was time to get dressed to go somewhere and we were supposed to wear dresses. I pulled one off a clothes rack and asked the woman next to me if this one would be OK, it seemed a little dressy but it was the only one I had so I put it on and then we had to wait and I was worried that it was getting wrinkled from being worn while sitting or laying around waiting and wouldn't drape as nicely as it had when I first put it on.

Weird.

I've dreamed about this house in the first dream many times before but it's usually 4 stories and the second floor is just a row of bedrooms mostly unused unless there is company and the scary thing lives on the fourth floor and I usually avoid going up even to the third floor. It's a big house with the row of french doors across the front and the big room on the end with windows on all three sides and a couple of sets of doors leading outside. It sits on a huge lot and no neighbors.

Saturday night's dream, just flashes: trying to find a parking spot in an airport parking lot, found a big empty space designated for Frontier, decided to move closer but that was designated for United, went back to the Frontier space but now there was a car next to me with little girls in it and four little boys around 4 years old all beat up and bloody from fighting with each other around my car and as I got out I told the attendant I was flying Frontier and I hoped those boys weren't going to get in my car. I went in the airport looking for someone who was supposed to be meeting me or was looking for me and went back out to the (now) parking garage, passed a meeting room full of people who were apparently waiting for this person/s to show up, went back in the airport and found the couple who I had already had a previous encounter with earlier in the dream that I can't remember now, and asked the woman 'do you know who I am?' No she didn't. I'm the person you are here to meet, and we hugged. There was also a part where I was driving around outside the airport in my search for these people. And something about taking a shower but that might have been a different dream. I've dreamed about trying to take a shower several times but there's no water pressure or I don't have any soap or shampoo or I don't really have time.

They all seem fraught with struggle though my waking hours are fine. Earlier in the week I intentionally woke myself up from a dream that I guess was disturbing me but I don't remember anything about it. I wonder if they're related to these ongoing extended afib episodes. If so, another reason to go through with the ablation. And here's another reason. I've written off and on about how much I've been sweating over the last year, can be sitting in the air conditioned house and just break out in a sweat. Well, I finally looked up sweating as a symptom of afib and guess what? Yep.


edit in response to Steve Reed's comment:  
I've read that when you dream of a house, it represents you and finding new rooms indicates growth of some kind. I can understand something scary in the house could indicate a fear but I don't think it's covid related. Probably more related to my pending decision to go through with the ablation which is certainly an invasion of the house if the house is me. 



19 comments:

  1. I also occasionally have dreams about a scary thing living in my house. I wonder what that means? Are we scared of something within ourselves? As for the people trying to get in, I certainly understand why you'd be having anxiety about contact with other people, especially strangers!

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    1. I've read that when you dream of a house, it represents you and finding new rooms indicates growth of some kind. I can understand something scary in the house could indicate a fear but I don't think it's covid related. probably more related to my pending decision to go through with the ablation which is certainly an invasion of the house if the house is me.

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  2. Such interesting, scary dreams you've been having. It is wild what our brains conjure up while we are sleeping. I'm glad that you are going to do the ablation. It will help alleviate the anxiety and fears about the afib. Take care there, ellen.

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  3. Anxiety and health and fear of the what may happen if your heart , the center of your house, does not start behaving as it should. Dennis has been taking Flecanide as well as Diltiazem ( cartia XL Er 24hr) for over twenty years now and has suffered no fibrilation, which used to be a common occurrence before the meds. Ablation sounds fucking scary!

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    1. Also i would never trust TEXAS medically ever again...

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    2. I understand but Texas is where I am. my doctor specializes in heart rhythm problems and has an excellent record. I did check that out. no complaints or reports against him. he wouldn't put me on flecanide because of my age.

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    3. Pediatric
      Appropriate studies have not been performed on the relationship of age to the effects of flecainide in the pediatric population. Safety and efficacy have not been established, but your doctor may choose to use this medication in children with serious heart rhythm problems

      Geriatric
      No information is available on the relationship of age to the effects of flecainide in elderly patients. However, elderly patients are more likely to have age-related kidney problems, which may require an adjustment in the dose for patients receiving flecainide.
      this is from Mayo clinic...Dennis is 83

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    4. I'm glad Dennis is doing well on flecainide, however it is not indicated for people with heart disease. this from the NIH...Based on Cardiac Arrhythmia Suppression Trial results...a threefold increase of arrhythmic death was recorded compared to placebo...flecainide nowadays is not recommended for patients with structural heart disease and coronary artery disease. And while I don't have heart disease, I am in that age group where it commonly develops, not for everyone of course. My doctor is being cautious in his decision not to prescribe flecainide.

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  4. I think you will do well with the ablation. I have to reply to the comment about Texas doctors. I am 78 years old. Have lived in Texas since I was five. I am a living testament to some mighty fine doctors in this state. I have had five surgeries over the years. Three of those were potentially life saving, I teased one of my surgeons that I have scars resembling a patchwork quilt! As far as I know, I have no issues now, except blood pressure and cholesterol.

    Now, if the subject is Texas politics, I sing a whole different tune!!!!

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  5. Ellen, I think you and your doctor are the best judges on your health. I wouldn't debate it even with well intentioned readers. That said, yay you for deciding on the ablation. I hope it brings a lot of relief.

    Heart and lungs tend to influence dreams a lot, probably because the rhythms are disrupted and the brain is trying to cope. Daily stresses, too.
    I've had far fewer anxiety driven bad dreams, lost, alone, strange town, car gone etc since the pandemic. Probably because I've been sheltered from people, the greatest source of stress for some of us!

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  6. I did not know sweating was involved. After my second ablation I had cold hands and feet with simultaneous sweating which was weird. Your dreams sound fairly awful. Hopefully that will stop soon.

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  7. My friend would say "Full Moon"! Full moon Monday, and she says people just get more and more crazy until it's over.
    I woke up at three trying to garden the weeds out front back into flower gardens. I kept trying until I got up at seven. I may have slept. Full Moon!

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  8. Oh wow, your dreams are like mine!! LOL Well, to the extent that I'm always looking for a bathroom because I have to pee (like you're wanting to have a shower but something always stops you). My 'house' is circular with windows all around the outside and doors on the right side of the corridor. One area is huge and it has a grand piano in it. I push a button and the drapes that are covering the windows in that area automatically slide open and I can see the ocean. Totally bizarre. No idea where the design came from but it's dramatic, for sure. I didn't know that about afib and have to confess that I looked it up on line the other evening to see if I could find out what the symptoms were. I'm thinking that I've problems with it this past week, but didn't take my blood pressure to verify. I'm thinking of buying one of those smart watches to keep an eye on things. I think you're spot on about the house and people coming in (invading your body by doing that procedure). Take care... and I'll try to do the same.

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    1. Sounds like a nice house! I have the looking for toilet dreams too but they're always broken, or nasty dirty, or some weird configuration I can't figure out how to use. I can feel when I go into afib. I know where the pulse point is in my wrist so I just check it there and it will confirm I'm in afib or confirm I'm not. I refuse to get one of those smart watches. everyone I know who has one lets it control their life. I don't need a watch beeping at me to tell me I need to get up and move around or that I haven't done enough of this or that for the day.

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  9. I have house dreams a lot too - my houses have lots of different levels in them & I am always roaming around them for one reason or another. It's exhausting!

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  10. Yes, I often wake up tired because I have been so busy in my dreams. I am usually supposed to be in charge of some type of big event and I am frantically trying to get things ready for that.

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  11. Someone once explained to me that dreaming of houses in whatever way means you are concerned about your body. The rooms represent the different parts and I think water is related to your spirit but don't quote me on this.
    Take care!

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