wasted days and wasted nights...

Wednesday...Right now I'm discouraged and not happy. The paint job looks like crap, too thick in some places, varying levels of shine, can't get the fucking spray paint in the corners which is why it's so thick in some places. Tomorrow I'm using acrylic to get into the corners and then I'm spraying the whole things with clear matte finish, fuck the glossy finish on the trim. I may just chuck them and start over or beg my brother to make them for me in time to get them to the gallery by Jan. 21^st and just not try and show one on Saturday.

And then Abby texted me to see if I would lead the yoga class tonight or she would have to cancel. She asked me on Monday too but I declined as I was glad to have the extra hours in the shop so no yoga. But today with my frustration I agreed. I needed to get out of the shop, away from the source of my discouragement, and focus on peace of mind and body. It was a small class, just three besides myself but they always enjoy it when I lead. So it did me good. Tomorrow, as they say, is another day. I'm letting go of the unnecessary anxiety.

Thursday...Got back from SHARE and went over to check on my shadow boxes and they didn't look that bad but I still didn't want them glossy. So I used the black acrylic paint to get in the corners, which was matte, and then sprayed one with the clear matte finish and it wrinkled the black paint in one corner where it was thick and left a cloudy surface in some places. Sprayed it again, cloudy surface gone but paint wrinkled in three corners. Sprayed the second one with the clear matte finish and it had areas that were cloudy when I closed the shop. Fuck it. I can't use these, don't have any more time to deal with them, I'm tossing them in the trash. I just wasted two weeks when I could have filled the luna moth mold.

But black was definitely the right choice. Here they are in place before I used the clear matte spray.

Came straight to the house and texted my brother, who lives in Washington state and who is an excellent woodworker with all the right tools, about making the shadow boxes for me like he did the ones for the feathers. They'll look much better, more professional, and he can do it for me in time to get them finished and off to the gallery for their botanical show in February.

I did decide on the arrangement for the pieces I'm taking which will hang on my display but I still have to move the hangers around (and switch the position of two of the feathers).

Friday...Big push today, last day to get prepared, put the display stand together (that's first on the agenda) and then dismantle it, figure out my pricing and get my tags made, get everything I need packed and preferably loaded in the car by end of day.